Just dying

I tried to live my life
I’m not sure I did well
I wonder if I failed
I never really cared
But I have tried
Yes I have tried

I wonder what mistakes
Led me where I am now
I thought I had succeeded
Without really knowing how
And I sigh
Ah, I sigh

Starting something new
Is not easy anymore
I left my will at home
My past is all I have
And I cry
I have cried

I won’t follow this road no more
I should make a sharp turn left
But I’m running out of gas
And I’m lost without a light
No more rides
No more drives

The pain has been too much
Illusions crushed to dust
When all what’s left is past
Who cares if I will last?
I survive
I will survive

They say all past was good
I think myself the same
But then there’s that bitch Hope
Whispering words in my head
I must thrive
Keep trying

I keep falling on the floor
I’m bleeding I see red
There’s a vulture overhead
And I think I’ll fade away
I’m so tired
So tired

I’m not young anymore
The end is getting close
Where is my golden wreath?
It all feels just the same
I am dying
Just dying